Today I met my friend Virgina for lunch. I used to teach at the high school where she is still working. We chatted about the kids, she updated me on the latest department issues, and we talked politics. It was perfect.
Yet, somehow, I am left feeling melancholy.
I have always been passionate about my teaching. It wasn't what I did, it was who I was. That said, most of the time I can't imagine trying to juggle three kids, a demanding church position and a consuming career. But there are days when I miss it terribly.
I have been "at home" for almost three years now. (Since my first was born, I have worked part-time, on and off.) This is the longest break I have had. The faculty has changed quite a bit in those three years and I just found out today that the principal is retiring. Fewer and fewer people know me there. When I want to come back, will they even remember me? Will I be able to go back at all?
I have every intention of returning to teaching; just as soon as my kids get older, I get released from the Relief Society, and I figure out how to make everyone's schedules synchronized. I'm not ready to go back
now, but I do want to go back.
Meeting Virginia for lunch was a treat. It is beyond fun to talk with her. She is intelligent, kind and passionate about what she does. I used to be like that. Now? I just wonder how I am ever going to get back.